Thank You 2013! Hello 2014!

I started this blog last March 2013 with entitled New Beginnings, and I must say 2013 was really a blast of new beginnings.  It was a year that I've met several people on the road - a lot are amazing, fun and interesting others are really impatient and difficult. A lot of memories that I won't forget, some are beautiful wonderful moments, others are toxic, painful and stormy. I've been with some extremely highs and unbelievable lows of my life. Yes, it was a year full of challenges and struggles but still so many blessings and so many reasons to be grateful for.

Suncorp Family

Now that a new year has come, I pray for everyone to have a positive outlook. That may this year bring us a new hope and a new life. I also pray for wisdom this year Lord. Wisdom gained from mistakes and painful past. You know very well what I went through last year. Thank You Lord for I know those things happened for a reason.  A reason to have a fresh start to become a better and stronger person. 

Loving Family 

I am excited what's gonna happen this year cause I know you are a God of Love, God of Hope, God of forgiveness and God of another chances.  Thank You 2013, for you have been an awesome year, and I believe that 2014 will be absolutely amazing. And now I am ready to face another brilliant year filled with dreams, wishes, hope and most of all love.

Amazing Friends

Cheers to a new year and another chance to make things better!!! :)

Unplanned Planking

Had a minor accident yesterday morning while I'm on my way to work, but I am still thankful it was not worse than what could have been. My dad used to drive me to work every morning and this is our very first motorbike accident since i was a kid and hopefully this would be the last. I'm still thankful that i did not break anything, just some minor scratches and bruises in my right palm and chin. And I really thank God he did not allow anything worse to happen to us especially to my dad. 

Photo taken yesterday

Photo taken a day after the accident

@#$%&*-+("')@&%#$@

Oh October, Please be good to me.

• Stressed

• Upset

• Sick

• Broke

• Anxious

• Depressed

• Exhausted

* You know that feeling when you're all messed up and you can actually feel your stress level is too high and you just want to get lost in the horizon and not worry about tomorrow. It has been a tough week for me but I guess I need to remind myself more of my personal mantra that "Things will only get better".

Insensitive....

Can someone please teach me on how to be insensitive?!?!
I just need a HUG!!! ;(

How I wish my heart had an on-off switch. That I could be so strong to walk away from you so I could turn my heart off from the pain.  One of the most hardest things in life when we are forced to make decisions with our head not our heart.  I even dreamt of you last night and how happy we were. Words can’t express the joy and happiness I felt in my dream. Your gentle touch and the warmth I feel at your side just felt so real.  But when I woke up I felt the sadness, realizing that it was just a dream. And it makes me even more sad knowing it will all just be memories.

I have not been lucky in love but I've been blessed with some amazing moments with you. How could I walk away just like that and forget you when all I can think of is how great we did and all the amazing memories we shared. And now,  how I wish I just don't care too much about people in my life.  And Yes, I'm  just so broken right now.  I'm turning to music, as I always do...

"Insensitive"

How do you cool your lips, after a summer's kiss?

How do you rid the sweat, after the body bliss?

How do you turn your eyes, from the romantic glare?

How do you block the sound of a voice

You'd know anywhere?

Oh, I really should've known

By the time you drove me home

By the vagueness in your eyes, your casual goodbyes

By the chill in your embrace

The expression on your face that told me

Maybe you might have some advice to give

On how to be insensitive

Insensitive

Insensitive

How do you numb your skin, after the warmest touch?

How do you slow your blood, after the body rush?

How do you free your soul, after you've found a friend? 

How do you teach your heart it's a crime to fall in love again?

Oh, you probably won't remember me

It's probably ancient history

I'm one of the chosen few

Who went ahead and fell for you

I'm out of vogue, I'm out of touch

I fell too fast, I feel too much

I thought that you might have some advice to give

On how to be insensitive

Oh, I really should've known

By the time you drove me home

By the vagueness in your eyes, your casual goodbyes

By the chill in your embrace

The expression on your face that told me

Maybe you might have some advice to give

On how to be insensitive

When it rains, it pours....

When it rains, it pours...
Oh Lord, please I just need some sunshine.

It's a crazy, crazy and unexplainable time. One minute everything's okay, the next you have nothing.

I just felt like absolutely nothing is going right with my life now, from job that isn't getting any better and now terrible heartaches. I felt so helpless. I'm here, nobody to share my loneliness and sadness. When people get too shattered, all they have to do is drop things, go back to their comfort zone til they're well and ready enough to step out of it again and take the risks.

But seriously though it's hard to let you go. I can't blame anyone except for myself for this heartaches. I knew from the very start that things were complicated but I still choose to stick with you.  How can you hate someone when all he showed to you is nothing but goodness. I just don't know how to start again without you. I just miss everything about you.


27 hours and 4 minutes of zero sleep.
I'm numb. I'm lost.
And now I'm sick literally.

F*cked Up!!!

I am very hopeful that one day I could wear you.
Until this day I just felt hopeless.
 I guess it will never gonna happen.

It's been months since I last posted anything to my own little space. This is  somewhere I am free to dream, to rant about my worst days, to be silly and stupid, to be weak  when everyone expects me to be strong, and express anything my mind could think of, or my heart could feel. 

Have you ever felt like nothing--absolutely nothing--is going right with your life? That's exactly how I feel right now. I was happy. Then I wasn't. This week is just plainly unbelievable. I just can't sleep and I'm in an emotional roller coaster now and I feel such a fool right now to believe that you loved me too. I know I should have been prepared for this but believe it or not, I was ready for this until you said such things that made me feel stupid now. I guess it would be much easier if you haven't said things that made me believe that this would lead to something beautiful. I just don't get it, why just now when I'm so into you and into this relationship.

How many times can I break 'til I shatter. How i wish that all of these is just a bad dream. I'm so broken. Not again. 


Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said that it would be this hard
- "The Scientist" by Coldplay

Coming Soon - Our Home

Just like every Filipino, We've always wanted to have our own house. My mother is an OFW in Israel for nearly a decade and we've been thinking that it is the right time to purchase our own house before she retires. Oh yes, a decade might sound too late, but I believe It's better late than never. :) 

Model house

Late last year since I had my indefinite leave, I have a lot of time to shop around on the internet for a good place to build our home. We're just eyeing somewhere in Cavite where in we can travel 20-30 mins from Makati or at least an hour in Manila. Finally we were able to spot a modern , beautiful yet affordable subdivision located at Kawit, Cavite. It is just a 20 minute drive from Baclaran and SM Mall of Asia via CAVITEX. The residential area is just a small community with a total area of 4.9 hectares with an estimated total of 400 units to be occupied. It is also right beside other big projects that has access to transport terminal, market, school, hospital, and church. We're just so grateful that we've finally decided to purchase our first home since this will also be a good investment that will give good value to our hard earned money. 

We re-visited the area last month and here are some photos of our unit's ongoing construction. We're just on our half of our equity loan but the unit is almost done. Now it's time to do some research for affordable interiors and furnishings. And lastly we need to work and save more to cover up the future expenses. With careful planning, hard work, time and effort, we are praying that this transition will be a success. Nevertheless, we are very excited to move in on our new home.