F*cked Up!!!

I am very hopeful that one day I could wear you.
Until this day I just felt hopeless.
 I guess it will never gonna happen.

It's been months since I last posted anything to my own little space. This is  somewhere I am free to dream, to rant about my worst days, to be silly and stupid, to be weak  when everyone expects me to be strong, and express anything my mind could think of, or my heart could feel. 

Have you ever felt like nothing--absolutely nothing--is going right with your life? That's exactly how I feel right now. I was happy. Then I wasn't. This week is just plainly unbelievable. I just can't sleep and I'm in an emotional roller coaster now and I feel such a fool right now to believe that you loved me too. I know I should have been prepared for this but believe it or not, I was ready for this until you said such things that made me feel stupid now. I guess it would be much easier if you haven't said things that made me believe that this would lead to something beautiful. I just don't get it, why just now when I'm so into you and into this relationship.

How many times can I break 'til I shatter. How i wish that all of these is just a bad dream. I'm so broken. Not again. 


Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said that it would be this hard
- "The Scientist" by Coldplay