Unplanned Planking

Had a minor accident yesterday morning while I'm on my way to work, but I am still thankful it was not worse than what could have been. My dad used to drive me to work every morning and this is our very first motorbike accident since i was a kid and hopefully this would be the last. I'm still thankful that i did not break anything, just some minor scratches and bruises in my right palm and chin. And I really thank God he did not allow anything worse to happen to us especially to my dad. 

Photo taken yesterday

Photo taken a day after the accident

@#$%&*-+("')@&%#$@

Oh October, Please be good to me.

• Stressed

• Upset

• Sick

• Broke

• Anxious

• Depressed

• Exhausted

* You know that feeling when you're all messed up and you can actually feel your stress level is too high and you just want to get lost in the horizon and not worry about tomorrow. It has been a tough week for me but I guess I need to remind myself more of my personal mantra that "Things will only get better".

Insensitive....

Can someone please teach me on how to be insensitive?!?!
I just need a HUG!!! ;(

How I wish my heart had an on-off switch. That I could be so strong to walk away from you so I could turn my heart off from the pain.  One of the most hardest things in life when we are forced to make decisions with our head not our heart.  I even dreamt of you last night and how happy we were. Words can’t express the joy and happiness I felt in my dream. Your gentle touch and the warmth I feel at your side just felt so real.  But when I woke up I felt the sadness, realizing that it was just a dream. And it makes me even more sad knowing it will all just be memories.

I have not been lucky in love but I've been blessed with some amazing moments with you. How could I walk away just like that and forget you when all I can think of is how great we did and all the amazing memories we shared. And now,  how I wish I just don't care too much about people in my life.  And Yes, I'm  just so broken right now.  I'm turning to music, as I always do...

"Insensitive"

How do you cool your lips, after a summer's kiss?

How do you rid the sweat, after the body bliss?

How do you turn your eyes, from the romantic glare?

How do you block the sound of a voice

You'd know anywhere?

Oh, I really should've known

By the time you drove me home

By the vagueness in your eyes, your casual goodbyes

By the chill in your embrace

The expression on your face that told me

Maybe you might have some advice to give

On how to be insensitive

Insensitive

Insensitive

How do you numb your skin, after the warmest touch?

How do you slow your blood, after the body rush?

How do you free your soul, after you've found a friend? 

How do you teach your heart it's a crime to fall in love again?

Oh, you probably won't remember me

It's probably ancient history

I'm one of the chosen few

Who went ahead and fell for you

I'm out of vogue, I'm out of touch

I fell too fast, I feel too much

I thought that you might have some advice to give

On how to be insensitive

Oh, I really should've known

By the time you drove me home

By the vagueness in your eyes, your casual goodbyes

By the chill in your embrace

The expression on your face that told me

Maybe you might have some advice to give

On how to be insensitive

When it rains, it pours....

When it rains, it pours...
Oh Lord, please I just need some sunshine.

It's a crazy, crazy and unexplainable time. One minute everything's okay, the next you have nothing.

I just felt like absolutely nothing is going right with my life now, from job that isn't getting any better and now terrible heartaches. I felt so helpless. I'm here, nobody to share my loneliness and sadness. When people get too shattered, all they have to do is drop things, go back to their comfort zone til they're well and ready enough to step out of it again and take the risks.

But seriously though it's hard to let you go. I can't blame anyone except for myself for this heartaches. I knew from the very start that things were complicated but I still choose to stick with you.  How can you hate someone when all he showed to you is nothing but goodness. I just don't know how to start again without you. I just miss everything about you.


27 hours and 4 minutes of zero sleep.
I'm numb. I'm lost.
And now I'm sick literally.

F*cked Up!!!

I am very hopeful that one day I could wear you.
Until this day I just felt hopeless.
 I guess it will never gonna happen.

It's been months since I last posted anything to my own little space. This is  somewhere I am free to dream, to rant about my worst days, to be silly and stupid, to be weak  when everyone expects me to be strong, and express anything my mind could think of, or my heart could feel. 

Have you ever felt like nothing--absolutely nothing--is going right with your life? That's exactly how I feel right now. I was happy. Then I wasn't. This week is just plainly unbelievable. I just can't sleep and I'm in an emotional roller coaster now and I feel such a fool right now to believe that you loved me too. I know I should have been prepared for this but believe it or not, I was ready for this until you said such things that made me feel stupid now. I guess it would be much easier if you haven't said things that made me believe that this would lead to something beautiful. I just don't get it, why just now when I'm so into you and into this relationship.

How many times can I break 'til I shatter. How i wish that all of these is just a bad dream. I'm so broken. Not again. 


Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said that it would be this hard
- "The Scientist" by Coldplay

Coming Soon - Our Home

Just like every Filipino, We've always wanted to have our own house. My mother is an OFW in Israel for nearly a decade and we've been thinking that it is the right time to purchase our own house before she retires. Oh yes, a decade might sound too late, but I believe It's better late than never. :) 

Model house

Late last year since I had my indefinite leave, I have a lot of time to shop around on the internet for a good place to build our home. We're just eyeing somewhere in Cavite where in we can travel 20-30 mins from Makati or at least an hour in Manila. Finally we were able to spot a modern , beautiful yet affordable subdivision located at Kawit, Cavite. It is just a 20 minute drive from Baclaran and SM Mall of Asia via CAVITEX. The residential area is just a small community with a total area of 4.9 hectares with an estimated total of 400 units to be occupied. It is also right beside other big projects that has access to transport terminal, market, school, hospital, and church. We're just so grateful that we've finally decided to purchase our first home since this will also be a good investment that will give good value to our hard earned money. 

We re-visited the area last month and here are some photos of our unit's ongoing construction. We're just on our half of our equity loan but the unit is almost done. Now it's time to do some research for affordable interiors and furnishings. And lastly we need to work and save more to cover up the future expenses. With careful planning, hard work, time and effort, we are praying that this transition will be a success. Nevertheless, we are very excited to move in on our new home. 

Back To Work

After more than 6 months of indefinite leave, I am part of the new helpdesk account where I got shortlisted. And yes, training is now being conducted here in Manila and I don't want to sour grape on this post since I have a lot of other things to be thankful for. lol!  The first week of training was for Voice and Accent  lead by Ms. Ariane who has such an amazing foreign accent. Voice and accent training is one of the most popular training programmes in the BPO industry. It is designed keeping in mind the diversified globalized culture and the need of business outsourcing to improve their overall English conversational skills to meet international standards. I find her somehow strict but I really admire her hardwork and passion for her craft to improve our communication skills.

The next few weeks will be for product training. The new account is one of the largest bank and insurance in Australia. I am very excited with this new project since it is a pioneer and day shift account, we were given hands on training by the clients or what we call partners. Yes they flew all the way from Australia so it is expected to have an intensive yet fun training. We just finished a month of training with some of the Aussie trainers and managers namely James, Colin,Ian, Nick and Luke. Surprisingly they are really cool,friendly,approachable and passionate at their craft. I must say so far this is the best training I had, since they are really good in keeping the training sessions lively. They just don't talk but they communicate. They know how to have fun by inserting icebreakers once in a while. We ended our first week receiving some gifts from them like tumblers, caps, some souvenirs and key chains fresh from Australia. They even prepared some food and drinks for us at the bar of Richmond Hotel at Eastwood City where they will stay for the next couple of weeks. With unlimited food and drink, we really had a fun night getting to know each other.

Poor Customer Service

We just paid a certain amount to this online seller name Althe Macwes for some products last April 9, 2013, however he was not able to send us the items. He gave us different alibis like he doesn't have time to go out to send the items??!!? And I was like - Seriously?!?! 

To give him the benefit of the doubt, I still gave him a couple of weeks. I've been sending him messages without hearing any response from him, until last week that I told him that we want a refund. To our surprise he is not replying anymore when we asked for our order and when we tried calling him he is not answering his phone. Until the other day, we decided to post on his Facebook page asking for the items and what we get is only a rude response from him. 
After couple of days of exchanging rude messages, we finally agreed just to refund the money and we will remove our post on his wall about the bad service he had given us. 

After almost a month of waiting, we finally got the refund. The money involved is not that big, but it would be a big help to share this experience to other online buyers to prevent future victims for this kind of service. Thank You.

Trendy Satchel

I have recently bought satchel bags from a good friend and we've been selling these stuffs on the internet as well aside from Korean dresses and accessories. I am loving satchel bags at the moment and I think our locally-produced bags are really of top quality with the price that will surely make the cut in your budget. It is made of thick synthetic leather material fronting a buckle design with plenty of pretty colors to choose from that will suit your fashion.  These bags are really pretty and stylish, and will look good on both formal and casual attire. What I love about it, is its  surprisingly practical features and multiple compartments for pens, IDs, small purse and the like.  

Here is my very first satchel bag, Polka in Black. I first used it when I attended the Kerygma Conference last November of 2012.

But for now, I just got a black satchel bag with front brown buckles since I just returned from work after months of indefinite leave.

Here is a Pre-order yellow mustard satchel bag to be sent to Israel for my mom's friend.

I Will Follow

For this month of April , we are having a new series at The Feast entitled "Follow Me - Lead Without a Title." Talk 1 just started last week entitled Clarity with Feast Builders Bro. Alvin Barcelona and Bro. Randy Borromeo. These two awesome preachers lead the praise and worship since Bro. Bo will be gone for a month. He will be leading a pilgrimage on Holy Land and Europe this whole month of April so expect to have a lot of surprises from the other feast builders for the coming weeks.

Speaking of surprises, I am not expecting that I will be seeing old friends for this series. I just realized again the power of facebook and how social networking can spread the word of the lord and God's love for all of us. I'm just so happy that our Feast family is continuously growing and that I was able to encourage some old friends to attend at The Feast by just merely sharing photos telling them how blessed to be part of The Feast family.

Family and Friends after the mass and worship at The Feast.
#TheFeastPICC   #Family  #PLM    #IBM

By the way, I want to share with you my favorite Feast song for this month which entitled "I Will Follow" by Chris Tomlin. This song best describes the new series for this month that  to become a good leader you must be a good follower as well. Let us pray that our eyes and ears be opened to what God wants us to do. May we become obedient and faithful servants and may we continue to spread the word of God's love for all people. In Jesus Mighty Name. Amen.

"I Will Follow"

Where you go, I'll go

Where you stay, I'll stay

When you move, I'll move

I will follow...

All your ways are good

All your ways are sure

I will trust in you alone

Higher than my sight

High above my life

I will trust in you alone (trust in you alone)

Where you go, I'll go

Where you stay, I'll stay

When you move, I'll move

I will follow you

Who you love, I'll love

How you serve I'll serve

If this life I lose, I will follow you, yeah

I will follow you, yeah

Light unto the world

Light unto my life

I will live for you alone

You're the one I seek

Knowing I will find

All I need in you alone, in you alone

Where you go, I'll go

Where you stay, I'll stay

When you move, I'll move

I will follow you

Who you love, I'll love

How you serve, I'll serve

If this life I lose, I will follow you

I will follow you, yeah

In you there's life everlasting

In you there's freedom for my soul

In you there's joy, unending joy

And I will follow

Ultimate Eyebrow Kit

I have recently ran out of my Pinkies Collection of eyebrow powder. Unfortunately I haven't used it that much, I don't have any idea how did the compact broke without even dropping it. And as soon as I open it, the eyebrow powder just cracked all over the floor, so I decided to try a different product. This is the first product I've bought from ELF which stands for Eye, Lips, Face. 

Ever since I started using this I have realized the importance of good looking eyebrows. The Elf Eyebrow Kit is from the ELF Studio Line. It comes with a small, dual ended brush (angled brush & a fluffy end on the other side), a gel, and a brow powder. I got the shade in Dark [Powder] as I thought it would match my morena skin. They do come in a shade lighter as well. In terms of packaging, it's simple yet looks so classy because of it's black color and comes in a flip cover container. What I love about it is it comes with a mirror inside! This duo provides long lasting color since it comes with a gel and colored powder, it lasts all day! Whereas pencil always used to fade or rub off me as I have quite oily skin, but this is hard to rub off. This brow kit is ultimately a good buy for a retail price of PHP 249.75.

Pinoy Investing

Knowledge is power

There are a lot of investment vehicles like  real estate, banking, insurance, portfolio investing, and other financial instruments which can help you conserve and enhance your hard-earned money. You've read about investments in the business section of your favorite newspaper! The rich invest! The poor simply don't know about it. Investing doesn't have to be scary. And it's not just for people with millions of spare cash.  The earlier you can start investing now the bigger rewards you can reap 30 years down the line. But first, you need to understand investment tools and set your investment goals. Before you start taking even conservative risks with your money, you need to establish a firm financial foundation that includes an emergency fund. You need to learn the different type of investments.

Diversify

Even if you don't plan on personally managing your individual investments, it pays to know the details about the most common types of investment instruments: stocks, bonds and mutual funds. You also need to learn investment strategies. Next is to build your portfolio and learn how to diversify. The idea is to invest in enough different sectors of the economy so that if one investment does poorly, your other investments will make up the difference. Then you need to stick to your investment strategy. The only solid investment strategy is a long-term strategy. It is best to put at least 20% of your income regularly on your investments. Investing at an early age with a smaller amount can easily be wealthier than a person investing a much larger account but for a shorter time. 

I know I'm still new at investing and there's so much to learn but I'm glad I'm taking one step forward to achieve financial freedom. I just started late last year with small amounts and I've been limiting myself in spending more than what I earned. I'm trying to learn the art of "Delayed Gratification". I first heard this word with one of Bro. Bo Sanchez talks and I must say he is a great mentor in giving financial wisdom. Just started with a portions of savings for emergency funds and had other portions on time deposits, mutual funds and ofcourse on stocks.  Don't get me wrong! Stock investing is not just for rich people. You can start investing with a minimum amount of 5,000,00php. Anyone can invest as as he knows how to save. Just like the maids of Bro. Bo Sanchez who are now richer than many managers! 

With the best seller book of Bro. Bo Sanchez "My Maid Invest In The Stock Market", millions of people will be enlighten and why should they invest too. To take your first step in achieving financial freedom, you can download this free e-book by clicking on this link. Have fun in investing! 

Give It Time

I've been contemplating on this quote for a while since I got the not so good news regarding the job that I've been waiting for. I'm trying not to be depressed because I know that the situation is already out of my control. Just to give you a brief summary, after months of indefinite leave, we were supposed to be sent off to Australia for training this April. However the clients decided that they will be the one to visit the Philippines for the said training. In short the training will be conducted here in Manila. I just felt disappointed since I already had my mind set having the training there and I know that this overseas training would really benefit my career. I even declined a previous job offer from another company because of the overseas training. I know I can't do anything about it since it's the client's call but I can't help but feel disappointed with the sudden change of plans. After what happened I've been asking myself if I made the wrong decision to stay with this company. There's this part of me that I wanted to continue my resignation and look for a better job again, since I withdraw my application from another company.  

I just want to let this off my chest so I can move on with this overseas training.  Maybe it's not yet time. I just keep telling myself that I don't have to worry, for how do I know that the side I know is better than the other. I just need a constant reminder that there are lot of things to be grateful for like these simple things in life like the food, shelter, money to pay the bills, and most of all  a loving family who supports me all the way. I know for some I shouldn't be making this a big deal, that there a lot of people who have worse situations than mine. That I should be thankful cause I'm still blessed for having a job that will start soon. I want to let go of this disappointment and will surrender myself to HIS greater plans. I just need to give it time and who knows - something better might come along.

Proud Sister

                  

My little sister has been going to school for 10 years now. It was her high school prom last week and now she just graduated from high school. I didn't think much about it at the time because lately a lot of things keep me busy. Then  I started to realize that soon my sister would be off to college. My sister and I have a 12 year age gap difference. She is the youngest of the three siblings. So I'm really more like an "Ate" to her.

I remember those times that I would often scold her because she always hang out with her friends and her grades are slipping. I know I had my share of faults because I wasn't able to look after her classes. We used to do a lot of explaining to her that she needs to finish school and get a college degree to get good paying jobs. That she is very lucky to have our mom to support her in college. We know she can do better, she used to be an A student during grade school. It just that it's her lack of self discipline and our lack of guidance as well.               
                    Pretty in Pink

Finally after those struggles, We're just so happy she seems to be more focus in getting good grades. She seems to be following Bro. Bo's advices as well during his Sunday's talk. I must say that my sister is enjoying Bro. Bo's talks and she is very persistent in attending our regular worship at the PICC. I know that she has her dreams as well and that's what keeps her motivated. She just took college entrance exams and still waiting for the results. My prayer is for her to be enrolled in one of the best schools that we may have the means to support her and that she may be happy and successful in her chosen field.

Because of our family weekly dates at The Feast, my sister and I are pretty close right now. Aside from regular dining and malling, I was her stylist for her last week's prom. I even help her choose her dress for the prom and personally had her make up done. I've got a message for you my little sister, Congratulations! As your elder sister, I promise that I'd always look after you to guide and to help you. Duties and responsibilities go hand in hand. It's time to take even more responsible decisions. We know you can achieve whatever you want in life.  All you got to do is believe that you can. We believe in you. No matter where you go or how successful you become, never lose faith in God. We're so proud of you. Best of luck for your future! 

Photo taken together with our dad during the graduation ceremony. :)

Gift of Service

   Photo taken last February during my first service at The Feast PICC together with my family and friends.

Just came home from a 2-hour rehearsal at 8th notes studio for Sunday's service. And now I'm listening to a new set of songs for tomorrow rehearsals for Grand Easter Feast on March 31st at SMX Convention Center. I never thought that I would enjoy rehearsing spiritual songs but it seems like I'm so inspired and ready to be blessed for this back to back service. 

Just to give you a brief history of myself, I've been a regular attendee of "The Feast" every Sunday together with my family and friends. We've been attending mass and lively worship at the PICC since October of 2012 and then I decided to join "The Feast-PICC Chorus" come February of 2012. For those of you who are not familiar with The Feast, it is a weekly gathering of the Light of Jesus (LOJ) Family, founded by Bro. Bo Sanchez, aimed at celebrating and spreading God's love through worship and inspirational talks.

Bo Sanchez is an author, entrepreneur, preacher and lay evangelist in the Philippines. He is widely known for his best selling books mostly on spirituality and entrepreneurship. He wants Christians to gain financial freedom, so they can provide for their own family and also give generously to the Kingdom of God.  One of his best selling book is "My Maid Invest In The Stock Market", he narrates how he helped his two maids and his driver invest in the stock market and save for the future by tracking where their money should go.  This book teaches a lot of readers the value of saving and investing for their future by taking good care of their financial blessings. And most importantly, by being financially free, we could then be a more effective instrument of the Lord to the people by believing that the ultimate purpose of wealth is to love and serve others. 

Through his books , I consider Bro. Bo Sanchez as my spiritual and financial mentor and a friend to thousands of people as well. He never fails to inspire me and encourage me what God wanted me to do. This whole idea of joining the music ministry is made possible through his inspirational talks that the Lord wants us to enjoy our talents, but he also expects us to use our gifts that he gave us for the enjoyment and benefit of others and to build the kingdom of God. 

New Beginnings

I love new beginnings. A fresh start is just, well, so fresh and new and clean. Just like this blog that I always wanted to write but for lack of time, I never did, until now. A lot of beautiful things is happening right now so I decided to create this blog so I would be able to look back at any day of the year some of the most important events that would happen in my life. Time moves surprisingly fast so it will serve as my photo diary and to improve my photography skills as well. This is also another way of recalling memories from the people I've met and what I've learned. I understand that others are saying that it's not good for us to dwell in the past and we should all look towards the future. However, I think sometimes reflecting on the past is important as we may have forgotten the moments that taught us life's important lessons. As I moved with different stages of my life whether it would be career, relationships, financial and spiritual, I realized that good things fall apart so better things can fall together.